Friday, June 27, 2008
aN Open-Letter for BoY TeNgaaN Open-Letter for BoY TeNga
Current mood: guilty
Category: Life
DEAR He-who-i-must-not-say-the-name,
Well, its been now Lighter
days since youve went away, and all I do
is check the screen to see if your OK..
Now, where would I begin?.. Oh yes, to
the part that I am devastated from
experiencing the excruciating pain of
being left alone,, and here I am,
standing on the ledge, waiting for my
rocket to come back and hoping once
more to take me out of this crazy mixed-
up world.
I can still remember how wed been
through, from glancing at a digital piece
of my life to being my knight in shining
armor.
Yes, the one who saved me from all the
burdens of my life, the one who gave me
wings and made me fly, the one who
drove off the shits on me, the one who
embraced me when I felt alone in that
cold summer night, and the one that
slaved my heart.
Everything between us seemed to be
beyond the limits of our status, were not
lovers but closer to that, of course you are
not just a friend, for me, youre my life-
support, supplying what my veins needed
in order for me to survive.
Somehow, I viewed it as a POSITIVE
thing! Expected that everything will turn
out right since you understand the
complexities that I have, but hate to
break it for myself, I cant stay on a cloud
9 forever..
22nd of may, half-past 8 in the evening,
you bid your farewell, made an exit in
the garden that you had made so
beautiful,
leaving it all alone, w/o thinking wholl
gonna tend all the things that youve
started.
That same night, I drunk my heart out,
hoping that a little numbness will fill my
entire body! I dont want to feel the pain,
not because Im scared or I dont wanna
suffer, is just because that I dont believe
its happening, even in my worst
nightmare, I didnt imagined that you
would do such thing,, oh you just did!
Practically, I know whats the very reason!
Yes, I AM SELFISH! I only hear what I
want to, Im so conceited, Im so
arrgghhhh, youll get the picture.
I know you are smart enough to know
where hell Ive been when youve gone!
Yes, u can even laugh at me when u
want to, u can declare yourself as a
winner, but hey, its real, Ive really been
to hell!
Then theres this guy who brought back
the life that u sucked in me! I was happy
again, because finally I could breathe
again! Id loved him so much more than
hed ever known, but as you are
expecting, I didnt turn out the way that I
am then.
Eventually, we parted our ways. Again, I
cried, but I came to realize that those
drop of loneliness arent for that thing,
hmmm go figure! And please!! Dont get
me wrong, Id loved him and what? Hell
always have a place in me, somehow,,,
someway..
Today, I am nothing! Yes, Im like a
pirated CD that stucked on a single
melody, YOU, of course! If only I had the
courage to face the next chapter of my
life, and then move on, Ill bet, ILL be
the slickest lass on the planet, but nor was
I.
As I looked in your batch elementary
yearbook, feels like all the memories ar
coming back like a storm that pass by and
then making its way again on my road!
Whoa!! Now thats what you call PETTY!
Not for me, because its the only way that
makes me smile knowing that Ive learned
and experienced the Lifes greatest thing:
TO LOVED AND BE LOVED in RETURN..
One thing for sure, everything happens
for a reason, everything is in Gods plan,
so now Im holding to him..
But honestly, if I can interfere what is
being planned and manipulate them, Ill
make us invinsible, inseperable and
unputdownable. So now, I need a
miracle to change the world, cause Im
sure, I cant change your mind.
Look at me today, Ive learn a lot from
you. I am proud to say that I am now a
better person, THANKS TO YOU,, Im still
holding on to your hand.. wishing that
someday youll know that I was the one
for you
Ratherly be inlove with you,
CAMILLE
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