Thursday, July 20, 2006
WHITE FLAG
“the art of letting go”
difficult times always lies ahead of us, and yes, letting go of something special is one of those burdens that might face each and everyone’s road.
On my case, it’s been so tough!
I remember there was a time that I’ve met somebody who’d been the life in the air that I breathe,
Who’d been the pot that filled my cup of tea,
And who’d been my prince charming in my fairytale-like life. I was so happy then that finally, I am experiencing the thing called LOVE. I’d thought that it will going to be forever that we’ll always be together, but hey! Nothing really lasts.
One night, he texted me and ended it all. The worst, He didn’t even gave me a reason why he had to do such thing, it’s so unjust!
What am I going to do? I just don’t know how to feel when somebody you’re devoted to, suddenly stops loving you.
I spent a lot of time coping to the reality, and I’ve learned it the hard way, he’s gone.
Yes, I hit the phase of anger, depression and bitterness, but I came to realize that these are all stages of martyrness. Dwelling on the past wouldn’t make me happy, instead, it will just make me feel more miserable.
I thought I had to content myself with loving and suffering, but I can choose either to be a victim of the world or a typical type of human being dueling and struggling against the twist and turns of fate.
I had grown a lot while waiting for this moment. I know I can’t have him back in my arms, just like the raindrops, u can’t hold all of them that keeps on falling down, and you can’t do something to get a hold on its totality. That’s why you have no choice but to let go.
I kept myself busy, somehow it helped me a lot.
I know I must rinse in the sea of loneliness, so here I am, trying to forget him… forget all those frustrations that he made and accept what’s in store for me.
My yesterdays were almost done, now my todays are easy now. As they say, Life is like a book, it is chapterized, you have to move on to the other chapter when you’re already done with the prior scene.
I do believe that Truly Almighty God is just around, helping us to become a more competent individual, because every time that we stumble and fall, we learn how to stand up and how to fly.
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“My life was a constant day-to-day frustration; one happy day is almost a miracle…”
everytime I feel alone, I can blame it on you… coz’ I have been more alone that I’ve ever been before.
I tried to believe you when you told me that I will be ok, but I don’t.
I tried to make u smile but you’re heart is in your throat, I tried to make you warm but you’re too numb for my fire, I tried to make u feel loved but you’d push me away!
In my arms I wanna take you, in my heart I wanna feel you, but you’d throw me up on a point of no return. But anyways, every little thing you gave me, sure I will find a way to thank you!
It’s a shame not to be able to breathe in a pure air!
‘human beings can withstand a week without water, 2 weeks w/o food, many years of homelessness, but not loneliness. It’s the worst of all tortures, the worst of all sufferings’
Sometimes, DEAD is BETTER… I know it will help me to alleviate the suffering that clutched on my system.
Ever had the thought of just walking away from all your fears and worries? And then
trade all those craps from a deep heavenly-peace slumber? Nah! I don’t need to do that anymore, coz even in my existence, I am so obliviated by you!
Traveling back on my memory lane, I was happy then… When we meet someone and fall in love, we have a sense that the whole universe is on our side. I saw this happen a while as the sun went down. And yet if something goes wrong, there is nothing left! No herons, no distant music, not even the taste of his lips. How is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before to vanish so quickly?
Life moves very fast. It rushes us from heaven to hell in a matter of seconds.
Could it be any harder, to live my life without you? Could it be any harder to face what’s true?
…if I only have one more day…
the sound of your feet, the smell of sweet perfume, stick to me forever..
I wish u didn’t go.
I wish that I could touch you again with life in your hands…
But I guess, it’ll never be the same again…
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