Friday, June 27, 2008
MY GUILTY PLEASURESTrue as they say, Youll only know your self when you have gone beyond your limits so I had confronted my demons and my dark side
After all, we are human beings, we are born full of guilt; we feel terrified when happiness becomes a real possibility; and we die wanting to punish everyone else because we feel impotent, ill-used and unhappy. To pay for ones sins and be able to punish the sinners, wouldnt be that delicious? Oh yes, wonderful!
Now I want you to know where the hell I had been but I guess I dont need to narrate the whole scenario! Hell yes! I hate him! (you dont know what are you really gonna feel when love, anger, depression, devastation and humiliation are all mixed-up!)
But as the JATR says, THE LAW HATES PEOPLE WHO CHEATS, SO KILL THEM ALL, and I want to kill him right now!
I want him to die now! I will curse him for being the nastiest boy that I have ever met!
Know why I am giving a damn? Because he made me feel like I am just an itch, but Im not coz Im far-way better than what he thinks, I AM GODDESS EXTRAORDINAIRE! I may not be that emotionally strong but I am not that naïve.
Of course I will make him suffer, I will tear him apart flesh by flesh! I will shave all the hair he got in his body, then undress his skin off from his body! But wait! Im just getting started; this aint even half on the show.
Skinless patootie, Ill make him swim in the ocean of muriatic acid! After rinsing, I will make him play his favorite tune with his favorite guitar, with needles in each of his fingers while strumming the last music that he will ever hear in his life! Oh yes, I will cut his wrist too (just like what he caused me) and taste his blood! The blood of a deep shit SCUMBAG!
But hey! No, I realized that a slow death will not make him suffer more, so I will just have my revenge in a more diplomatic way! I will let him live for the rest of his life. So maybe youre wondering how can I earn my vengeance?
No, I dont really want to hurt him physically. You know that my only weapon is my writings! Tsk! But I came to realize that he doesnt have a mind, so even if he reads this, it would not get into his nerves. Does he have a heart at all?
No! all he have is his deep carnal hunger, his silly friends, crappy ladies and his putrid colleagues! Eewww!! so its just SO oVErLy LAME to spend a lot of my precious time boosting off my anger to such a filthy rodent like him!
So maybe youre wondering why my title is like that? When I would not feel really guilty to do such evil things on the guy that I am talking about!
Well, actually I feel so guilty for making the wrong decision of attaching myself to him! Duh! He is just a chatroom guy who have no life, and definitely, no future! Haha someday, he will be burn in hell!
Note for my constant readers:
The guy that Im pertaining to is NOT BOY-TENGA!
Sure he made me go down below and fall apart but I can not hate him! I dunno! My heart dont want me to hate him eh!
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