Wednesday, October 11, 2006
Monday, May 29, 2006
Confessions of the TEENAGE DRAMA QUEEN part I (by mimicamz thonie) EhEM!
Current mood: sympathetic
Category: Romance and Relationships
I live my life in a lot of IRONY
i dunno why. tried and tried so hard yet i can't seem to fly. well that is so lame for me
but hey!
U KNOW I got a nice status!
got the best Family!! (yeah, even me and my mommy often quarrel, but still i love her so much!)
studyin at good school, got some cool friends,
got doughs and the flowz.. in short fabulozo!
but it seems that i am not happy?
why am i not happy?
oh yeaH! LOVELIFE for instance? as usual!
^i met so many men, wheww it's like they're ol d same. mY appetite for lovin is now my hunger pain^
here are some unfortunate events:
--- i met a guy named Jeffrey medarlo dalangin! oh god knows how i loved him but he isn't contented in me, datz y he comited his self to a very ugly moronic gurl named Gem.
--- this one is lyk dat of the moment when u meet the man of ur drimz,. Timothy.. a lasallista, got a car exchange busines, born wit a golden spoon on his mouth!livin d millionare's lyf @ d age of 22. oh yes not to mention his physical features! a certified scene-stealer! he's hot and a real gorgeous lad. we've been dating each other 4 6 consecutive months, til i found out dat he's olredi married with a very beautiful woman named elizette!
--and then this guy.. i do not wish to name him (coz d wounds are still fresh!)
hmm... he's everything i want! all that stuff, i love every single thing dat makes him! from tiny details to large pieces! whoaa! soulmate indeed?
thought so.. i thought HE IS THE ANSWER TO MY prAYERz, he'd been there for me when ny going gets really really tough. when i was alone, he came around. when i was down he pulled me through,
Now tell me? are there any reason not to fall for this guy?
i can't afford to say NO to my heart! each day dat passes by, my affinity burns bigger.
it's lyk i can't exist w/o him.
YES. he became d life in the air dat i breathe.
i was so happy then coz having him in my life means i got everything. but hate to say it, u cannot have all the pieces of cake.
For no reason at all, HE LEFT ME NO CHOICE! he gave me heaven then all of a sudden, he took it away.
ouch! that really hurts!
ok! no more drama.. but the drama is still penetrating me.. a deep angst of pain strucked me,,
haayyyy.... what am i suppose to do?
am i that so utterly ugly?
haha
weird things are ragin' up my mind!
u have a great talent for choosing mr. wrong?
but are they really mr.wrong?
or things are jus getting ironic..
lyk dat when..
>LOVING the right person at d wrong time
>BEiNg with the wrong person When the tiMe is right!
> and the most painful of all, REALIZING that the Person is the Right one whe He is already out of ur life.
well for me, that's a very traumatic tragic love coz i have so much Love to give yet no one seems to want it.
i admit, i'm kinda boy-drooler , but ones i'm attached and comitted, i'm a new person,, devoted to to my man,.
yeah u don't know what it's like..
the pain of rejection
having a false hope..
and falling for the guy u that u think is the right one for you.
there's so much things that i've learn from these fiascos..
but what lesson i hace to bear in me is that...
I SHOULD NOT LOOK FOR THE RIGHT ONE..
INSTEAD, I SHOULD SEARCH FOR THE REAL ONE..
as of now.. i try to tell myself that somehow i'LL survive.. even if it pains me so much!!
chaque fois que tu ton va, je pretend qou tu fa bion...
these guys??? what they're always causing me is
SWEET MISERY..
ROMANTIC FRUSTRATION..
JOYFUL SORROW..
well that's really ironic..
ISN't iT?
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