Sunday, October 08, 2006
UNINVITED...About a gUrL name ThONie
The jeepney stopped and I stepped out. I ran for
the shelter of the bar while using my bag as my
shield from the rain.
I pushed the glass door open and walk towards
you. As always, you were with your friends. I sat
beside you and hastily pat myself dry with my
hanky. I was expecting you'll say something but
you just nodded at me.
"Who's playing?" I knew it was a shallow question
to ask, but it was better than waiting for you to say
something.
"Some band." you said without even looking at me.
Obviously, asking you a shallow question is not
better than waiting for you to say something.
After that you never said a word again. You were
too engrossed with that some band you were
watching. I was starting to get impatient when your
best friend approached me.
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah." I said with a small smile. Funny how other
people seem to care more about me than you do.
Your best friend and I have just started chatting
when his girlfriend walked in. He excused himself
and meets her at the door. I cant help not to feel
envious when I saw him kissed her and held her
hand. I wondered when I well get that kind of
treatment from you.
Then finally, you turned to me.
"Why didn't you bring an umbrella?"
"I was already on my way here when it started to
rain. I asked you to pick me up at the school."
"And I told you that I cant. You know that we have
a gig tonight."
Yeah, yeah, and for you its most important thing in
the world.
You scowled at me before turning your glance on
stage. The band began to play another song. You
went on ranting about their equipment and
discussed it with your band mates and friends.
Ignoring my presence again.
I sighed. I didnt want to be the wallflower so I
reached for my cell phone. I texted my friend and
told her about whats happening. I just really had to
let it out or else Ill explode. Good thing she was
still awake during that late time of the night. She
was able to reply to my messages. Funny how
easy it was to communicate with someone who's
miles away than with the person sitting right next
to me.
"Get ready. Were next." said your band mate.
"Are you going to stay until we finish our set?"
Duh?
"Of course. Thats why Im here. To watch you.
"Well proceed to the tambayan after here. We
might have some beer."
I shrugged. "I'll come with you."
"But youve got class tomorrow. We might stay
there until morning."
"I can hang with you for a bit then Ill leave."
"I might not be able to take you home."
I let out a heavy sigh. "Dont you want to be with
me?"
"No."
No, you dont want to be with me?
"Then why are you pushing me away?"
"Im not pushing you away."
"So you're saying it's just my imagination? "
"I dont know what you're talking about."
"Youre neglecting me."
You shook your head. "I dont need this. I told you
not to come."
I clenched my fists on my lap and stared at you.
That did it. Sad as it may be, I knew I had to admit
to myself that it was worthless being with someone
who doesnt even need my presence at all. I picked
up my bag and stood up abruptly. You followed me
to the door. The rain continued to pour, matching
the storm that was raging furiously inside me.
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