Friday, June 27, 2008
An open-Lette FoR BOY TENGA (part II)Dear who-He-I-must-not-say-the-name,
If Tears had a face, I think it will kinda look like mine, and if it had a home, I think it will live in me forever. Why? Oh don’t be fool, don’t act that you don’t care and don’t act that u havent anything to do with this thing!! Yes its you! You are the reason! No, I m not blaming you, I don’t have the right to blame you for what happening to me! If continuing this idiosyncrasy isn’t in the typical standards of norms, then I wanna be wrong for the rest of my life, You are the sweetest sin.
Hey! You made me lose the spectrums of my existence, it feels bad but I miss your voice, I miss your smiles, I miss you your nose, I miss your eyes, I miss your shoulders, I miss your arms, I miss your hands, I miss your feet, I miss your ears, I miss your lips, I miss your kiss, I miss your iris, I miss everything about you, but if I’m not permitted to feel such emptiness, let me say one last thing that I miss the girl I was with you,,, the who is crying and laughing together with you, the girl holding you in her arms, feeling the warmth of your body next to her, oh swear it was the happiest moment in her life! Yes! You are the very genuine reason why you made that girl so happy!
As I feel the cold chill of the monsoon wind, it makes me cry and smile. Smiles for mesmerizing all the moments that we had share together, the times when you’re still there for me, the hours of my day where I can spend it all just talking to you, the struggles that bumped my road and solved it by yourself! And most of all, that soul mate thingy!
On the contrary, I am crying every now and then for the parting time that we had not so long ago! You know that don’t wanna let go of your hand, but your making your way to get out on my grip, so it just happened! You’re gone! Even though I don’t want to shed off my tightness in your hands, things just happen, so fast that even if you have the power to battle against it, still, you cant overcome its vulnerability,
Perhaps I can unleash this one fine summer love out and away, perhaps I can meet the man that will close my buttons, perhaps I can be a successful human-being that I always wanted to be, perhaps I can find a high-wage job that will make me happy, perhaps I can get marry someday and have my own kids and raise a home of my own family then later on, DIE! My tombstone would be engraved with these words, Camille the girl who had loved earboy so much
Yeah! That’s a sure thing that will happen in the next decades to come! So what can you say? I am not asking you to feel guilty and bad about yourself, I just wanna let you know what’s the fact behind me who had I deep cut that I don’t deserve!
Oh maybe in your verdict, I do but why?
Hey! I have a secret to divulge Even though I am with someone new, all I can think about is you although they make me happy and carry on in my everyday frustrating life, its still you that I think is THE REMEDY for this ache
If ever we will be seeing each other again, I wanna tell you that I would like to stay with you for the rest of the night, for the rest of the week and for the rest of my life.
Trying, hoping and praying,
Camille
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