Friday, June 27, 2008
DEAR REDDear Red,
Hi, hello. It seems that it's only yesterday when I was holding you, when in fact; it's been a year when I last saw you. Where could I start? I got a lot of things to say to you but whenever I try to speak them up, there comes nothing but despair.
I love you, you know that and it cannot stop, it is constant and dynamic.
Finally, I had the strength to address this letter to you, specifically you. And for a year that passed by, I spent my days with frustration and suffering, when you left me, I dunno how can I face my life, I dunno what will I do without you, coz u've been my immortal love, yes! I never believed in a thing called soul mate until you came in and gave me the roller coaster ride of my life, whereas the time stopped, the chills pricked me quickly, the bells are ringing me and so as the peak of my life is reppin' to the fullest. When I met you, I saw your light, and I loved you once, and I thought that, at this stage in my life, I had nothing to lose by being honest with myself and with the man I wanted to be by my side…
Love was undoubtedly one if the things capable of changing a person's whole life, from one moment to the next. That there was the other side of coin, the second thing that could make a human being take a totally different course from the one he or she planned; and that was called despair. I know that not all things will eventually go along with what you expected, I lost you, and I cannot accept that fact, it's too surreal to believe in.
But as I wake up every single morning, eat, walk, travel and go home, I'm still wishing that I could see you and embrace you for even one more day… Sometimes my eyes play tricks on me that whenever I meet someone who resembles like you, it gives me a quick fix of hope that that person is you, but no… will I ever see you again?
Ok, I know I can't have you back again, somebody owns you now, I can't say goodbye, I still love you even though I'm with someone new, and you couldn't blame me for that!
I know that you can't say to the spring "come now and last as long as possible." You can only say, "come and bless mw with your hope, and stay as long as you can."
And to sum up all my conclusions, you had just a PASSERBY in my life… that's the bitter part of meeting you, you had only a purpose of alleviating my burdens, and I don't blame our fate because I know that everything is in God's will. If we are truly made for each other, then I know you'll come back home to me again…
This sounded like a farewell, but it was the loveliest farewell I would ever experience in my life…
Standing on the edge,
CAMILLE
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